I'm supposed to be the boss of this; I'm supposed to be miles ahead.
Let's do it up like grade 9 and make Mary Ward academia my bitch again, yeah?

To do:

• French u4 + u5
• English u5
• Media Arts u4 + u5
• Computer Studies u5
• History u5

Sleep is nothing to me. Let's just stay calm and keep downing those Starbucks Venti-sized drinks LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING CHAMPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Note to self:
Don't get too dependent.
Don't be that kind of girl; it gets annoying pretty fast.
Don't get whipped over stupid little moments. Eyes on the prize.
And whatever happens, stay away from the computer lab.

ever have those bouts of awkwardness when you feel like the most boring person on earth? you process what other people say and even if you find it interesting, you can't think of anything interesting to say back. it's like you've forgotten how to talk properly. then you freak out and you spend the rest of the conversation not really listening to the other person at all, but instead in inner turmoil with yourself because honestly, what the fuck's the matter with you? where are all the words and the jokes that would normally be flowing outta those lips? your laughs become fake and everything's tense and there's this clenching in your chest and you're unable to make good conversation with anyone, most especially that one.

i spent the walk home after that completely uncomfortable bus ride thinking of what should've, could've been said and done. i'm scared i might be permanently stuck this time.

so... what the hell do i do?